February 2012
28 posts
My Great Grandma was a wise woman
She had shared with my aunts and uncles as she said to me, that the key to finding the right partner to life is never settling…and making a list. She was married for about 40+ years or so. Soooo here’s what I have so far :
1. Must be a musician and be able to compose
2. Must be VERY open minded to different lives and structures
3. Must be taller than me
4. Must be physically...
Once again music saves the day.
Thank the God’s for it. It truly is the greatest gift to man. I feel that is the only way I am ever going to be understood. And that is the only thing I can always fall in love deeply with.
The unfortunate teller.
Living in ignorance is sometimes easier than living in foresight. Normalcy is the real gift.. I wish that I did not know things…like feel them in my gut, within my body like a poison that slowly consumes my being.
It is slow and is like a stalker, you cannot see them but you know it is there. You fear it. Or like a horror movie right before the gory details fill your mind. You know what...
Confession at 1 am
Maybe I do want that stupid romance…you know where everything is right, health perfect, a beautiful new home, money, a cat and a dog….being with the one you love having his arms wrapped around you , singing sofltly in your ear as you watch the sun set.
Maybe I want that someday. Here’s to dreaming while things are further from the truth.
“You will be out with friends
when the news of her existence
will be...”
– Sierra DeMulder, “Unrequited Love Poem” (via fleurishes)
Perfect.
Masochist
I must be a glutton for pain but I am amazed on how I still have faith in humanity after some things I have witnessed at a small but malicious scale today.
Another ” I need eggs” moment.
The reason I give my all...
Is for small moments in life where I see the fruits of my tears, blood , and sweat. I love my job and my music. No one can take that away from me.
Finally things are slowly working in my favor. I just have to keep my heart honest.
Behind the humor and the laughs
It still hurts. This day hurts. Doesn’t help that a lot of bad shit keeps happening to me too. It doesn’t help that the one who hurt me seems like he got out scott-free and is rewarded more in life than I am. That some how he keeps controlling a part of my life and chokes me, intentionally or not. It hurts to see the majority of friends who are married, engaged, or taken, gloat to me...
Steady....
I am pretty sure I got asked out on a date 3 times this week…but I can never know the difference….
Wait…just got asked again??? On vday weekend? Huh?
I must be clueless or uninterested or both.
Listen
Thoughts of this week
Cops around msu due to crazy ass neo nazis= oh fun.
Breast feeding= Get over it , it is a natural thing
Politics= bullshit
Love= I have no idea what it means but know how it is supposed to feel.
Everything can be explained musically= ditto
Go figure. I missed you Tumblr.
January 2012
45 posts
I guess all the Tarot Card Readers were right
All of them pretty much predicted the troubles I would have at 25 when I was 20 : I broken engagement, lots of moves, health issues, changes in major,tons of tears :(…..
Where is the part of my musical success into stardom? Where is the part where I meet this so called Aries that does harm but changes my life and brings me peace? Wait…that part already happened…but where...
“To protest a bill that would require women to undergo an ultrasound before...”
– Huff Po (via rachelfershleiser)
This is the most beautiful thing. Can we send her flowers?
(via jaimealyse)
BOOM.
(via nerdysouth)
I think I love you, Janet Howell.
(via panamanianmoon)
Seems only fair.
(via nefariousnewt)
WIN
F*ck men
I will try to actually get a successful date with a woman instead of not knowing I was on a date with a beautiful girl like I did a while back.
Men are whores.
a note to women everywhere:
thewarmestchord:
beware of men who flatter you before they know you. they’re always up to no good.
Today’s adventure is brought to you by a complete guitar playing creepy stalker saying I look like the girl of his dreams and we should get coffee. O.o sigh Seriously, I get stalkers in my offline life, Facebook, Google + , and now on Soundcloud? Lame.
Who would have thought....
That my years as a DJ would come in handy as a Music Therapist? WHOOT!
I haven't written a poem in a while
One day ,
we’ll do nothing
lay in bed
tangled in the sheets and flesh
my hair caresses your bare chest
your hands will rub my back.
In this lazy day
we’ll watch the rain
it washes all our worries
the rain will drown our shackles
And we will be content.
Sleepily,
our tongues and lips will speak
and in between,
we’ll have a drink
converse about humanity,
the...
A bad feeling...
I cannot shake this bad and sad feeling… it is like a ninja in the shadow that you cannot see, you doubt, but in your heart you know it’s there.
What do you have in store for me life?
avocadopears:
why would you be in a relationship with anyone you’re not out of your mind passionate about? love isn’t an indifferent matter.
YES!
I'm a big kid now
I just had a terrible epiphany that I may need to upgrade my social scene. I do not know if I have the problem but I am feeling more grown up and need to go for something that is suiting my needs.
I do sound awfully elitist don’t I? :/
Being an adult : Overrated but necessary.
Too much thinking
I think too much… or rather I think because I cannot understand. Over think. Stupid brain. Go to sleep. I am sure it makes sense in a song or something in my life will put my worries together.
*sigh* the usual suspects are my health , career, and social life ( i.e love life )
Career seems to be going well… the other two seem to be in a lot of pain.
Grrr…. it could be worse....
thetargetbird:
The world flitted its eyes here and there, but I could only eavesdrop, never interrogate. Instead, the world rested its trajectory along a new word: autopsy. I let my skin play dead while all that had been me shattered. I desperately want something fireproof. It focused on random templates of rage corrupted by not fitting together. Adaptation was incitement to violence; ...
Q: is everybody going to get married or have a kid...
thewarmestchord:
justpg:
A: yes. according to my timeline.
oh my god, i know.
*jumps off bridge*
NOPE….I am newly single and on the pill.
Sidenote : most of my friends who got married after 22 are getting divorced at 25. What does that tell ya? Think before ya act ;)
I cannot wait to get paid....
I know I don’t get paid much but my bank account looks pretty miserable at the moment…yikes :’(
Deep down a Capricorn wants romance and love....
In the midst of my sudden too good to be true...
I decided I want to do something to my hair….but what?
Color it, give it bangs….or a modern bob?
Hmmnnn
High school drama : Adulthood?
I always find it fascinating when some adults result to highschool tactics for their personal gain to information about things or individuals thinking that I would not be so wise to catch on.
I however will play this game for my amusement..in hopes that maybe these individuals will learn that the root to their demise is their own insecurities and that they must change if they wish to continue...
SOPA and PIPA
Suck it. Protesting and blacking out my pages is something I do not regret on top of calling up my senators/ petitioning something that I have seen destroy other countries.
No regrets
